Somewhere Along the Way

I was addicted to orgasm for most of my life

Tortured by an unfillable black hole of worthlessness

Somewhere along the way the wiring in my brain got crossed

Putting me in a constant yo-yo state of mirthlessness

I was dependent on jerking off from an early age

Hooked on the transcendental stimulus of the big O

Somewhere along the way my on-and-off switch got frazzled

Leaving me in a place of never being in the know

I was strung out on self-stimulation for a lifetime

Caught in a sadomasochistic pleasure trap of pain

Somewhere along the way I went missing in a wet dream

Consuming me like tears lost in an everlasting rain