Didn't Die a Fool

Not staying in step with my own being

lost in an unfocused world of mother induced ignorance

becoming a masturbator instead of a doubled-up Don Juan

missing now moments caught in a haze of overthinking

leading me to misanthropy and heartache, aloneness and despair

manifesting as an unfocused fool missing out on his own life

a cowardly quitter and bad luck wanderer brewing in yucky ways

yet in the end despite the ravages of my unsightly karmic fate 

I settled on nurturing, healing human love and didn't die a fool